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Ask | Archive | By: Leblanc Wolf

I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching lately.

And recently I feel as though I’ve come to a new sort of understanding. When I say new, I guess what I mean is something that I feel like I’ve always known, but could never fully embrace, you know?

People around me always seem to be living for someone else, doing things for someone else. And it isn’t always explicitly that way either. Everyone’s so busy trying to hop onto the next bandwagon, find the new trend, everyone wants to be someone in this society and I always feel like an outcast, like I’m just watching animals in a zoo desperately fighting over something I don’t understand.

And I still don’t.

Why do we struggle so much to be someone in someone else’s eyes? Why do we care so much about our image as seen through someone else’s perspective? Why do we define ourselves based on how someone else defines us? Why are we living our life for someone else?

I have nothing against “conformity” or “trends”, as long as you remember the reason why you’re doing it. In everything you do, do it for yourself - it isn’t selfish, at least I wouldn’t define that selfishness. This is your life, this is a gift given to you, don’t live it the way someone else told you to, live it the way YOU want to. If something makes you happy, then it makes you happy and you should just fucking go do it because yes, people will judge you but at the end of the day who really cares? You don’t know them, and they sure as hell don’t know you, and even if they did, so what? 

Sometimes when I see everyone either going to work or to school, I wonder, if they’re truly happy. If this is the happiness they wanted in life, or are they just doing what they do because they’re supposed to, because society has set a protocol for what is acceptable and deemed respectable. 

They’re all trying so hard to figure out how to live that they forget to ACTUALLY live. People want to create this “image” so badly, this facade of a successful person, whatever success is to the majority, and people just want to prove themselves and compare themselves to others. I think it’s great to have a direction, drive, motivation, and the desire to accomplish things for your life but don’t do it because you’re supposed to, or because you need to get a career, get married, have children and live a suburban life, but because you want to. 

We live in such a materialistic world nowadays. On top of caring too much about other’s opinions, we care too much about what our material possessions say about us. We care about what kind of clothes we wear, what kind of house we own, what kind of car we drive - things that aren’t meant to define us. Yes, it’s nice to have material things especially when they act as a “reward” to your achievements, but somehow that sense of reward has simply transferred to “yeah well, look what else I have that you don’t!”

I don’t see the substance in a lot of people anymore. I see a lot of emptiness in the streets, a lot of two dimensional smiles, a lot of black and white and gray, with no colors, no dreams, no warmth. And the thing is, I wouldn’t even really say it’s this “digital age” that we live in - hell, we created the damn thing. I don’t know when it started being this way, this decline in the quality of life, and by quality of life I meanreal quality, not monetary things.

If we all stopped spreading hate and discrimination, prejudice and judgments, if we could all just love one another for who we were or who we’re trying to become, if we just respected and tried to understand one another, if we listened and embraced each other you know, world peace could probably exist. I really do think so. Despite how dull the world looks like now, I don’t think humanity is beyond saving.. we just have to find a reason to.

December 3, 2011 | 10:06 12 notes
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